WoW, It's been a year!

So I been randomly looking through xanga here and there, and I'm finally motivated to write some. I hope everyone is doing well, I kinda miss comming on here and listening to what people have to write abt and getting advice from people..that is something facebook does not offer.

Wedding planning has been crazy hectic for me, but now finally things are comming together! The best part I think is when you hand the stuff over to someone else to take care for you, event decorators seriousy take a big load off your chest!!! I can finally breathe now that that is over, but holy shit I can not believe how expensive it is. I could have gone on a 4 week honeymoon instead, but I'm sure it'll be worth it. I just want it to be over----actually take that back...I don't know what I want....

Life has been good! My job is crazy and does not allow me to be part of the recession, which is great...but my schedule is soo off....workin night shift sucks, but damn I love all the ppl...

Cheaters

One thing I never understood is why people cheat... What is the point? I don't think I could ever bring myself to do something like that to anyone. If I'm not happy and I need someone else to fullfill my needs, why not just dump the guy I'm with and find someone else. I also don't understand why some people put up with dating someone they knew cheated on them. You obviously know that person doesn't care enough about you to remain faithful, so why  be with them?

Recently Taif tried to make me jelous by telling me he cheated on me in the beginning of our relationship..but it doesn't work..cuz i don't get jelous i just get pissed even when i know its a joke...cuz i think it's stupid to joke like what when the both of us know that i'm one person he would never cheat on... he barely ever looks at any other girls when i'm with him n when i'm not.... n he was way too up my ass throughout the beginning of our relationship it would make me sick...he put way too much into being with me even b4 we dated..so i know he just says it...i treated him like shit so that he'd see that we were better off as friends than a couple..n it still didn't phase him cuz he said he knew what he wanted the min he saw me....

In his past he cheated on every single girl he's dated...he told me he wasn't faithful to anyone... n I don't get the fun in that..his reasoning was that they were all either easy, or just a fling..even his longer relationships he cheated. I think it annoys him to see that him having the past that he did..i still won't believe him even for a joke. If he loved any of them he wouldn't have cheated on them.. n i know he loves me..so why would he bother... but i'm sure alot of girls that got cheated on think the same way...lol  his ass would get caught so quick if he ever did..he's an awful liar n i can tell my looking right at his face when i kno he did something fucked up...n the most he does is has a cigarrette or a drink..but he'll eventually crack n tell me anyways...

It was wierd knowing that he almost married his ex just so she'd get kicked out the house n then he could leave her on the streets by dumping her right after... that woulda been payback for the ugly bitch he says cuz she was a whore with a nasty attitude... umm didn't he cheat on her anyways so what did it matter...lol i don't get it.. Is there some rule saying only one person can cheat? someone explain it...

i know he wouldn't leave me if i cheated on him, but i'd drop him in a heartbeat if i ever found out he did...i don't put up with that shit....cuz i honestly believe if someone has ever even thought about being with someone else while in a relationship...it wasn't meant to be, cuz that's not how it works..atleast in my book

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I'm in an extremly good mood today. My brother came to visit from Gainsville and I spent most of my day with him. Got home from work at 8ish slepts till 2 n jus got home..we went out for a picnic, sat around the beach, played some volleyball  n i'll be getting ready to go to the movies in a lil bit. I was suppose to go bowling and have a girls night out at a bar or club but i rather spend some time with him. I missed a candle party n a baby shower too cuz i slept in...does this make me a bad friend? lol

Anothe reason im excited is because after months n months of looking i think i finally found the ring!!! Not yet decided on the size of the carat but i know the band now.....here's a pic ..i'm very picky with stuff like this n so i have to keep looking n lookin till i find something that i dream about at night if i can't have...

 this is a Tacori band, and i loveeee itt!!! If Taif doesn't like it i prolly will end up with a solitare...he wants me to get the past present and future engagement ring but i don't want 3 diamonds..one is good enough. his taste is more like this....n i like mine better...i don't think he should have a say in it anyways..lol

  I tried a few different sizes and decided i def want a 2 carat or  lil more but anything two big out does me n i don't want that... all this will fit into his budget of around n i'm sure i can twist his arm n get what i want...i'm worth it..lol..some ppl says its all in the band, and others say that its abt the rock..let me know what u guys think abt the band..i havent found this one in the few stores i been to.but i found something very similar n almost better..but this is the basic idea....

i'll have a protected post up soon..

UPDATE!

I read entries every so often but haven't had the time to sit down and write anything. Everything has been good, done with school on 2 months!!! I'm really excited about the idea of not being in school for a little while and making some decent money. I'm definetly going to take some time off before starting my masters, like 3 months...lol unfortunetly my dad makes that decision for me...:::rolling eyes:::... still deciding if I want to teach, have my own practice, or do anesthesia....ugh I'll save that for another day.

Marriage plans? everyone seems to be getting married now days..lol wht?!  I have 2 yrs to figure it out, almost doesn't seem like enough time when reading what others have to say. Just thinking about an engagement party is a headache!!! I want small, he wants big...blah..i'm too anal about detail n that doesn't help... when i was at my cuzins wedding this dec it was like it was mine, i was bridezilla for her...but it came out perfect!!!! i'm gonna b one of those ppl that isn't gonna want any help cuz i like to do it myself...=/ thas bad huh

so hmmmmmmm....here i am spring breaking...n all i'm doing is studying =( except on weekends-hehe- well i'm good for now....this wasn't much of an entry...sowwie...xoxo